It is not my intention to go two days without posting, in fact, I was sure the first time it happened, it wouldnâ€™t happen again. Except that it did, and now it has happened once more. After a long day at work followed by a Blazer game, I was in no mood to sit-down and get my thoughts down in type. So my alarm is set for early tomorrow. Iâ€™ll wake at 5:30, brew a cup of coffee and sit down to tell you about today.
Yesterday, I had a frank conversation at work with one of my Healthy Cooking Coaches, lamenting to her my disappointment at not finding the motivation to completely cut out the oil. â€œItâ€™s hard,â€ she reassured me, â€œwhen you live this lifestyle 90% of the time, it doesnâ€™t seem that important to hit every pillar (no meat, no dairy, no oil, no refined grains/sugars) 100%.â€ She summed up my thoughts exactly, but it didnâ€™t take the guilt away. â€œWhy couldnâ€™t I just suck it up and go at it 100%.â€ The obsessiveness and shame is getting a little tired, I certainly donâ€™t need any neurotic restrictions or guilt around food and eating. No one does.
It has been a busy busy few weeks, and this week in particular Iâ€™ve noticed some eating clearly related to stress: more wine, chocolate almonds, pop corn, snacking, caving into desire when dinning out with friends and not sitting down to meals (looking at you lunch). Iâ€™m thankful for roasting off a few batches of veggies and preparing a soup in advance so there are shortcuts to take when Iâ€™m running late. Real talk: Grumpy, frustrated, disappointed.
FOOD DIARY DAY 21
Breakfast: Miso roasted root vegetables, steamed kale and roasted beets, coffee
Lunch: Cup of squash soup, coffee
Snacks: dried mango, chocolate covered almonds. Bag of microwave popcorn split with Ella, topped with bragg’s amino acids and brewerâ€™s yeast.
Dinner: Leftover curried squash and apple soup with fire roasted corn and roasted cauliflower and a dab of garlic sauce (oil). 1/2 slice of rosemary sourdough (refined grains) topped with earth balance soy margarine (oil!!!).
Drinks: 1 glass white wine
FOOD DIARY DAY 22
Breakfast: Miso roasted root vegetables and Kale, coffee
Lunch: Coconut Curry Noodles and okonomiyaki tots from boxer ramen
Dinner: more steamed Kale and the last of the miso roasted root veggies, slice of vegan pizza (totally off limits) at the game, 1/2 a sliced cucumber and 2 tablespoons hummus.
Drinks: Two glasses white wine